A Date

I'm not sure how dating works nowadays because its been a while since I've been on a date. I got invited by three different males out on a date. At first I wondered if I was doing something bad because I don't know if single girls are allowed to date multiple guys at a time. In a way, it benefits me so it gives me an idea of what kind of guys I am into.

I had sushi with a very interesting potential teacher, but he was hungover when we met up. When he was hungover, he was feeling sick. I felt bad for him. I kept wondering to myself, maybe he should've stayed home. If he was feeling so sick, maybe he should've stayed home. We went to Kabuki in PB. Never been there before, but I think everyone should go. There are these little boats floating with sushi on them. Its cute. We took a walk on the PB boardwalk. But he was still feeling sick so I told him go home.

He's Just Not That Into You

I feel like Drew Barrymore from He's Just Not That Into You. I'm so confused with all these different technologies that I'm not sure whether or not you are supposed to call, text, email, facebook, myspace, twitter, or even send a comment on their blog. The question I have is: what does a girl do?

I think chivalry is dead and sometimes it is up to the female to make the initiative, but I don't want to anymore. I'm tired of waiting by my phone and checking my facebook to see if that person has made the effort to contact me. I'm used to making the first move or even making the first call, but I'm tired. Honestly, I'm tired of making the first anything nowadays.

Moreover, I'm so confused on how I am supposed to act when interested in a male. I feel like there is so much pressure to be a certain way. My cousin calls me 'rare' because she says you can't find a girl like me, which is a good or bad thing. Mainly, a bad thing because guys don't got for girls like me...well, at least the ones I'm interested in.

I guess what I'm saying is that I need to stop checking out guys and focus on what is important, my family, education, etc. The guys I am interested in...aren't interested in me, and the guys i'm not interested in are interested in me (which to my dismay saddens me).
::sigh:: Ashley was right....how do I manage to stay single for such a long time.

New Chapter

My dear and good friend Carly has a blogspot. Go figure! I'm not surprised. Carly and I both love to write and I think blogspot is an upgrade from Xanga. I think this is my third blog on blogspot, but something I actually want to remember instead of leave behind as a chapter in my life.

I'm tired of running away. I miss being the badass me who isn't afraid. maybe I can control everything in my life. I can do this.